If only I could be a better person. Less cruel, heartless, cold and distant...complex, and mean. Most of my environment would say that i'm adorable, so sweet and thoughtfull, anything but selfish, and I have to admit that in fact I probably am all of those things, but then again so much more.
I wish I could be the perfect girlfriend, stop making him suffer, he says he loves me, that I AM perfect, that he doesn't want to lose me, but I know i'm gonna fuck it all up, as always.
The engin is already rolling, i'll make him hurt until he leaves me...